I love church on Tuesday nights. I don't always get to go, but when I do, I learn so much and of course, God always aligns it with something that I have kept deep in my heart and only He is aware of.

Tonight was no different. See, I have a friend who is hurting. She was sitting next to me tonight and her tears fell on my hand. I thought to myself - I know exactly what she is going through. I have been there and know the pain she feels. Then it occured to me...so does God. He felt betrayed, unloved and hurt by the people He loved, just like we can when we are hurt.

I realized tonight that I have been such a brat lately. Iused to pray consistantly that God would use me for whatever He wanted. He did, and I was hurt badly in that process. Since then, I haven't been praying that He can use me, when that is what I am here for. I am here to serve Him and have Him use me any way He see's neccessary. It is time for me to open my heart again and no matter what comes my way...no matter how badly I get hurt...I need to know that it is God's will because that is what He planned for me.